Hi there, awesome people!
In the poll I posted yesterday, I see that some of you requested me to write more about myself and my life, so here I go!
I don’t know if you remember, but a while back (waaaaaaay back), I wrote about my addiction, and more specifically, about my alcoholism. And I think there are a lot more to say about that, so I’ll try to cover some things in this post.
Okay, so I’m a little bit better now. I’m fighting by addiction every single minute and I’m mostly winning. A two months back I was on a rough path and I was drinking daily A LOT! Maybe that’s one of the reasons I wasn’t posting anymore. I just had only one goal in my mind: my next drink!
And then, one day, I realized it’s a stinky situation and that if I continue on this path, it won’t be long until I’ll be gone and my son will remain without a mother. Also, I spent too much money on booze and it’s already challenging to live in this country… and that’s when I started fighting my addiction fiercely!
I know I want to give my kid a better life. And myself as well. And this blog seems to be my salvation, and I’m not talking financially. Yes, maybe I’ll find a way to raise some money based on your recommendations, but that’s not the point. This blog exists because I created it and it grew because you guys were here for me and for my content. So, I need to become a better version of myself every single day so I can share with you how I did it and maybe, just maybe some of you will find some value in that. Maybe you are in a tough spot right now and your only comfort is coming to WordPress to read some blog posts. And maybe, just maybe a blog post you read today is made by me and you just see that everybody goes through rough things through their life, but there is a way out. There always is. We just need to open our eyes a little bit to let a glimpse of light go straight to your soul.
That’s all we need. A glimpse. To know it is possible. It is real. We are enough. YOU are enough!
So yeah, I have to be a better version of myself so my son can have an example. I don’t want him to become like me two months ago. I want him to understand that it is ok to fall. It’s normal. The question is: what do you do after that?
You know what’s funny? I still had some drinks in a social context a few days ago, but I didn’t feel the urge to drink more. Not at that point. I’ve had some urges from time to time, but I managed to control them by thinking about the direction of this blog. About all the plans I have for it and for me.
So I’ll say it again: this blog is my salvation! Because it gives me the comfort I can rely on it, and not on booze.
Hmm… does this mean that:
I Am replacing one addiction to another?
Thank you for reading!
PS: If you enjoy my content, I will think of you while drinking my coffee. – BuyMeACoffee
My son, this blog and coffee is what keeps me alive and going while fighting alcoholism!