Hey! I hope everything is awesome for you!
For me, not so much. I mean, I don’t even know. I mean, not for real. It’s probably my own mind telling me nasty stuff. And that’s why I decided to tell you how does the mind of an alcoholic looks like (my mind).
Do you also have a voice in your own head whispering stuff from time to time? And that voice is not that loud, but it often speaks. It’s a habit.
When I go out tying to buy some groceries, that voice tells me I should buy a beer as well. Just one. Or maybe two.
When I want to take out the trash, that voice tells me it only takes 5 minutes to go to the closest market to buy a bottle of wine. Or maybe some vodka as it’s easier to drink and it gives a bigger kick.
On my way to work, that voice tells me I should go in the closest market to buy a small bottle of any kind of booze just to start the day a little bit better. At 7 AM in the morning. And on my way home, it’s the same voice telling me I should buy a couple of beers so I can sleep better.
I don’t know if all alcoholics have this voice, but mine is constantly there telling me to have just one more drink and then I’ll quit. And everything gets to be around that one more drink. And I don’t even know why I want that drink… because I don’t want it. But I want it…
It’s a tough battle… I really hope none of you feel the same…
Anyways, have a wonderful day!
Love,
Elena
PS: If you enjoy my content, I will think of you while drinking my coffee. – BuyMeACoffee
My son, this blog and coffee is what keeps me alive and going while fighting alcoholism!
Short Wisdom 
Ten months sober this month. Being an alcoholic sucks (wine, beer, and yep! Vodka) because you’ll probably always wait for that last drink. Oh well, keep busy, although I know it’s a constant struggle against boredom. For me, anyway. One day at a time.
Not a fun battle, I sobered up in 1984 right after a Christmas nightmare. Stayed clean till Oct, of 92. I graduated from college thought a joint to celebrity sounded good,, so I bought an bag. Didn’t drink, got clean again Nov 7 93 been OK since. I made it out with AA and NA, what they provided was a way to a spiritual program different than the one I had been programed with. It is doable. Hang in their. Love yourself! For me that was the tricky and also the solution.